I almost crashed the car. While I make no claims of being an outstandingly skillful driver, I do credit myself with being a pretty sensible, legal and even careful one. But I’m not infallible, either. I’m just very glad I happen to be lucky, too.
So my close call was just that, a close call. It would have been my own fault as well, because although I did wait and look all directions and not see any cars coming my way since the one that was was behind something bigger the whole time I scanned that direction, it jolly well was there and it was moving rather quickly. Possibly even faster than was strictly appropriate in that stretch, but I was still the driver that started to turn left at the light directly in front of that oncoming car. Our respective guardian angels were evidently working overtime, because both the other driver and I were able to brake and steer out of the situation fairly swiftly.
A split second’s difference, and our cars could have been demolished, our selves injured or even killed. That accident being technically my fault would have been utterly irrelevant outside of legal terms and in practical terms: both of our lives stood a hair’s-breadth from being forever altered, not to mention the effects on all of the life-dominoes that would inevitably be downed or redirected by that incident. All because of a single mote’s difference.
And we two, and all of those around us at the intersection, in the following second or two regrouped and continued just as though nothing had happened at all, if perhaps with a dash of adrenaline pumping.
Isn’t that the way that we live every day, every moment, though? Whether through wickedness or stupidity we go astray, or merely by happenstance or sheer momentary bad luck, we are at risk every instant we’re alive. As a person who copes with exaggerated anxiety (thankfully, mine is treatable), I could easily find excuse in that for any amount of paranoia and become anything from a perpetual pessimist to an emotionally crippled hermit. But besides being impractical, that’s a hideously unappealing plan for existence.
My solution is to keep working on my vigilance as far as paying attention to the details in day-to-day life, hoping that others are doing the same and we’re all generally watching out for each other, too, and assuming that my good luck, guardian angels and/or serendipitous circumstances will always tip in my favor. Beyond that, knowing that I can’t control any such things, I know it’s best to just turn off the switch, to let go. I even like to think I can be on the lookout for more excuses to be delighted with life and let the accidents be ones of tripping over unexpected joys. There’s far too much fine and happy stuff in the mix that should not be missed or wasted.

Yes. π Mindfulness is an organic gift, for sure, though sometimes hard to cultivate. I’m glad you’re okay, Kathryn. Near misses like these can be terrifying!
So much better the near miss than the hit! π
Glad you are okay!!!!
Me too, thanks! I don’t mind being dimwitted unless it should lead to my untimely demise. Lesson learned–for now. π
Wonderful post, Kathryn, and so glad your luck and guardian angels were with you! xoxo
Thank you, Lauren! I’m sure I’ve put my guardian angels in overdrive more than most in my lifetime. Good thing I have a crack team of them, eh!
xoxo
I’ve had some close calls, too, and it’s very surreal..I hope your team continues to stay close! By the way, I’ve opened a new poetry fb page if you’re interested. It’s under Lauren Scott…Hugs!
I am so glad you’re OK π
Me too! We all have our moments–I’m so grateful mine had the happy ending it did. π
xo
That must have been quite a sobering moment…I am so glad too π
So glad you are okay!
Me too! Nothing like a quick reminder of one’s vulnerability to spice up the ol’ appreciation for a good life!