Recent weeks have seen our household in full music immersion. The casual observer or fly on the wall might be rather skeptical of the claim, when our home–other than occasional brief bursts of singing from my partner’s office while he’s studying a score–is, if anything, more silent than usual. That’s simply because the music is mainly taking us both elsewhere. And thanks to our practice of managing a one person/two places of employment, one car household economy by means of my sometimes chauffeuring him between gigs and staying through on the sidelines when possible, I get to share in the musical inundation.
It’s no surprise that a conductor, especially one who works in one of the largest university music programs on the continent and therefore has colleagues and students almost beyond the counting who offer musical rehearsals and programs well worth our sharing from morning until late every day right alongside and overlapping his own, would be so surrounded by sound. The Anglican church where he’s currently serving has, in addition, the average Sunday in which the choirs he conducts will sing anthems, Psalms and liturgical service music at two full morning Eucharistic services and one Evensong. All of this is, in fact, hardly unique among conductors, many of whom like him also do guest conducting, clinics and lectures and all of the adminis-trivia that accompany choral, educational, ecclesiastical and institutional operations everywhere. I’m still often astounded at what he manages to do, not only logistically but with continued thoughtful musical scholarship and grace.
And always, always, I am moved to gratitude that I’ve had the incredible good fortune to link my life with his, this person whom I not only like and love but also admire immensely for his integrity, artistry and good humor. On top of all this, I get to Go Along for the Ride and listen to it all.
So as things have gained momentum on the calendar chez nous (as they do cyclically in every household), I have been privileged to bathe in oceans’-worth of music to please my ears, to challenge my thinking, rejoice my heart, soothe my sorrows, ease my weariness, shake my complacency, and rock me gently on sonic waves of peace and beauty. I could do with a little more of that household silence, not to mention free time or sleep, and we can safely assume my spouse would welcome these ten times as eagerly. But I can’t think of what I’d willingly cross off the list from among what we’ve been hearing in the last number of weeks.
I always love listening in on rehearsals, whether with groups my husband’s conducting or otherwise, in part for the wonderful music I hear and in large part because, as a non-musician myself, I can enjoy nearly any music more if I’ve not only listened to it a few times to become more familiarized but, especially, if I’ve gotten a sense of what the singers and/or players are being told about the work–its origins, history, style, particular complexities, and so forth–and are being asked to do with it musically and interpretively. Each group of artists converges at an entirely different point in time in the performing arts, each and every time they rehearse or perform, because in addition to gradually improving or changing skill levels and building affinities with the works in question, they each bring different degrees of their daily condition with them for the occasion: health, attitude, and the news of the last hour may color a performance and endanger or enrich it accordingly. All ages and levels of skill and experience and passion can have ‘off’ nights onstage or, conversely, magically exhilarating moments of unsurpassed attunement, somehow, with the universe.
I love actual performances, too, of course, where the high drama of potential crash-and-burn or apotheosis resides in every second of the concert, the recital, the act. The power that emerges from the performers nerving themselves and plunging wholeheartedly into the moment is a splendid spectacle and can transport us all to other places and planes. Not having the performance skills myself (nor the will or self-confidence to develop them as necessary), I am all the more aware of what’s at stake and how nearly incredible it is that great things come out of the effort so often. And, of course, that much more appreciative that there are those who can and will share such gifts with the rest of us.
What the last weeks have brought have included a huge range of such gifts. There was an outstanding high school choir whose fine conductors invited my husband to do an evening’s clinic with the singers on literature they’re preparing for a choral competition. Such joy and energy and responsiveness filling the room! Then, some of his sopranos and altos from one of the university choirs singing the lovely and yes, alluring ‘Sirènes‘ of Claude Debussy as guests on a university orchestra concert, calling all of us listeners to wreck our souls on the dangerous promontories of their imagined seashore. Two performances of the uni Symphony Orchestra in a showcase of some of the school’s powerhouse players, including a recently acquired, fabulous violinist who gave a mesmerizing performance of the Allegro moderato of Tchaikovsky‘s violin concerto (Op. 35) each time–once on campus, then at the Texas Music Educators’ Association conference 5 hours’ road-trip south, where if I weren’t musicked up enough lately I certainly could (and did) dive in among the over 25,000 musicians in attendance at the convention.
There was a delightful performance by a doctoral conducting student with his recital choir. Lots of rehearsals and warmups and services with the church choirs, including lovely works by William Byrd, Morten Lauridsen, Gregorio Allegri. Rehearsals with the university Chamber and Collegium (early music) choirs going on as always, and new ones beginning with the combined singers from Collegium and Dr. Jerry McCoy‘s outstanding A Cappella Choir whom my partner was preparing for performances of George Frideric Handel‘s oratorio ‘Theodora‘ under the baton of Maestro Graeme Jenkins of the Dallas Opera, along with the university’s Baroque Orchestra. Ash Wednesday was a road-tripping adventure, with the two of us working at home in the morning, heading to Dallas for him to warm up and conduct the choir in the noon Ash Wednesday service at the church, dashing back to the university for his afternoon Chamber Choir rehearsal, then back to Dallas for the 6 pm service and a following weekly choir rehearsal before going home back north for the night. But oh, so much lovely music sandwiched in between car races!
That was followed by Thursday and Friday nights’ ‘Theodora’ performances–3 hours of ecstatic music about agonizing trials, or good old life-and-death oratorio drama of Handel’s best sort–and then, yesterday’s Metropolitan Opera broadcast of ‘Ernani’, which I told you about in last evening’s post. Squeezed between concerts and rehearsals, a few pauses while at home spent on listening to a Canadian rock CD (yes, pretty listenable!) I just got as a comp for letting the musicians use my art for their CD cover, and especially on stealing bits of time to revisit our nephew’s punk band Honningbarna when I can. Upcoming is, oh, just more of the same: more beautiful liturgical music-making at the church; more rehearsals, recitals, and concerts at school and in town; another major musicians’ conference; the Dallas Symphony Orchestra, opera at the university and perhaps the One O’Clock Lab Band (the university’s top, Grammy-nominated Jazz ensemble), if we can somehow manage the time for it. Holy Week services (about 8 in 5 days, counting only the ones my husband’s conducting). More of the same.
And yet it is music: never quite the same thing twice, nor the same experience of it. Always powerful, always waking up parts of me that I may have forgotten or not even known were there to be awakened. A constantly changing stream of sound-waves that in turn, become oceans of music to buoy me up, toss me around, pull me in, and carry me far, far away.
Such beautiful music you described in your piece!
Bottom photo: Recorders! I have one that I’ve been neglecting to learn how to play. I need to pull it out and start trying again.
Oh, good for you! I’ve sometimes thought it would be lovely to learn to play the recorder at least a little just for one’s own pleasure (I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t get good enough to give much listening pleasure to others). There’s something so soothing to me about recorder music . . .
Every time I go to the symphony there is a creative energy that leaves me speechless at the end of the night. I’m always in awe of the talent and it leave me inspired to be better. You described so much beauty in your piece – it must fill you to create.
It is indeed a powerful force! I really can’t listen to music without being filled up with other kinds of imagery. Where it goes after that is the fun part of the remaining equation.
More than anything else, I loved your paragraph:
“And always, always, I am moved to gratitude that I’ve had the incredible good fortune to link my life with his, this person whom I not only like and love but also admire immensely for his integrity, artistry and good humor. On top of all this, I get to Go Along for the Ride and listen to it all.”
🙂 Mandy
I believe I’ve heard mention of a certain beloved person in *your* part of the world that inspires similar emotions, haven’t I! Aren’t we incredibly lucky?? 🙂
Absolutely! 🙂
This has been a wonderful post. All the more so, because it was so familiar, and I could identify with so much that you recalled here. Experiencing music in the making is the experiencing of a parallel universe, and I agree with you, that even if the piece is performed again and again, it is never quite the same. Whether it be one musician, or many, coordinated by a conductor, we become intimate with time in a live performance, knowing that the quality hangs by a thread… And how happy I am for you that you are able to enjoy and take pleasure in the work of your mate, and add to the different projects with graphic work that sometimes finds its way to the envelope holding a disc or invitation. Your words have been a source of true joy for me.
Your words here, Shimon, are a source of true joy for me, too! I thank you sincerely. And I am ever so glad you’ve had the opportunity to so enjoy the wonders of music like this too.
Wow Kathryn that is quite a schedule for your partner and, of course, for you. You describe everything so beautiful and with a passion that makes me wish I was there too to hear the music. 😉
Although I’ll be delighted to take you along with me on my musical peregrinations if you visit here, I am also quite certain there are, ahem, a few (!) rather wonderful musical resources in a certain part of Ireland, not to mention ones worth visiting in those nice little towns of Paris and London! 😉
I’ve been fortunate to have known — and to know — a few musicians and, like you, find the practice sessions fascinating, especially early on when a particular piece is being learnt. Also like you, I need to hear a music a few times before I can really appreciate it — another benefit to witnessing a practice. I envy those who can hear a tune once and recall it note for note. And I’m with Mandy. I loved the paragraph in which you spoke of your Conductor. 🙂
Thank you, John! I am one truly wealthy person, I am! And I know that a person with your loving family and great friends and your wide-ranging creative interests truly understands all of this sort of thing. 🙂
How I envy you the opportunity “to bathe in oceans’-worth of music to please my ears, to challenge my thinking, rejoice my heart, soothe my sorrows, ease my weariness, shake my complacency, and rock me gently on sonic waves of peace and beauty”. Savor the times. 🙂
I shall, Ted, I shall indeed. Thank you.
Living a life so filled with music is truly a gift. I’m sure it informs much of of the beauty you share on your blog. Lovely.
What fills up our hearts spills over–I’ve seen you prove that many a time!
xo