Photo: I'm Having an Idea

Quiet, now, I’m having an idea.

I have a small problem hovering over me, just an itty bitty thing really, more of an irritant, an itch. Okay, it’s a big frustration. It’s that I’m lazy.

I have so many ideas, a few of them even good ones, but I don’t make anything of most of them. They wither and dissipate into dust, dying of neglect. That’s a pity. Not that I don’t get anything done, ever. I’d just like to have a higher win/loss percentage to report.

I’m not likely to become an entirely new and different person, having confessed this; my record of sticking to resolutions isn’t a whole lot better than anybody else’s. But I’ve had my little triumphs, and I do want to expand the list. I’ve made a promise to myself that I will do some things to improve my productivity in a few areas that really matter to me, and I’m going to write down a framework for how to go about it. And I will do it.

I don’t think I will benefit from telling everyone on earth what my plans are; my ability to tolerate the shame and humiliation of failing to live up to my own expectations is long and well-practiced. But I will benefit from keeping the promise. If all goes well, others might even benefit some. (Cheering self onward surreptitiously.)

10 thoughts on “Idea

  1. I would never have guessed Kath – you diligently do a post every day which to me is perfect discipline. I do look forward to reading your list.
    Have a beautiful weekend dear.
    🙂 Mandy xoxoxo

    • In a wry twist, of course, my plan-to-make-plans has been interrupted by my little health adventures. But I’m not giving up on the whole thing! So I’ll keep you posted…eventually. 😀
      Lots of love,

    • In retrospect, it could’ve been a more *fun* weekend, but I still think that finally *finding out* I had a kidney stone and starting to *do* something about it fits into my so-called plan for self-improvement in its own awkward way!!

  2. I know EXACTLY what you mean! and I have no idea why I don’t follow up on things, even things I really want to do, I’m 60 years old, don’t think much is going to change now!! but I can keep trying 🙂

    • In some ways, I’m finding that the older I get the *more* important it becomes to me to keep trying; I suppose it’s part of the whole sense-of-mortality thing, knowing that every hour spent is forever spent and living richly in the present will be more fulfilling in itself than letting any tiny ambitions I have just languish and disappear. 😀
      Big hugs, and may we both find the best and happiest ways to go forward!!

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