A Faraway Look

Looking inward requires the most thoughtful, clear, exacting kind of sight. It requires both the power to see great distances through any number of intervening obstacles or distractions and the will to pay attention to and accept what’s seen. These interior distances can present the greatest challenges in our lives. And when they’re conquered, having presented the greatest risk, they can at last offer the greatest rewards. Braving this adventure into self is often frightening and intimidating far beyond the terrors offered by ordinary, real life adventures ‘on the outside’. May I always be willing to take the leap.digital illustrationI wrote that thought down some time ago, and while it’s often played out in my life in a vast number of ways and to differing degrees, it seems to have come to the fore once again in a particularly pointed way. Every time I reach the crossroads I have to decide: do I dare to do what I really think I need to do? Do I want to do what I need to do? I know that other people are always undergoing these same challenges, most of them deeper and more perilous than my own, but I also know that every one of us worries and struggles and imagines and aspires uniquely, and that no one person’s journey is truly untouched by any other’s. And the more other people that I know are affected–directly or indirectly–by my decisions, the more I will wrestle with the inner process.

All of the standard stresses of existence that plague those of us fortunate enough to be beyond the most basic survival questions of food and shelter will continue to try us as long as we do exist. Health, work, age, finances, relationships, memory, strength, purpose: how we do fret and fear and puzzle our way through them is the ongoing test of our self-worth and contentment, and in turn, of our ability to give to others. Will I come out of the day on the plus side of any or all of these valuables? What decides it? The only certainty, for me, is that the need to address such questions never ceases.

Now let me close my eyes and go to work.

2 thoughts on “A Faraway Look

  1. And if the need to address these questions did ever cease, then there would be no moving forward in life…this is a good post for us to put our thinking caps on in relation to our own lives and stresses, etc…you’re good at making us think, Kathryn, and sometimes it hurts! 🙂 Hugs!
    p.s. I hope I’ll always be able to take the leap, too! 🙂

    • My sweet, if I ever give you the slightest twinge, I apologize; just know that it means we must be on the same track, as I generally write such stuff when I’ve got a twinge myself. You are so tenderhearted I doubt you have much reason for worry–but that’s exactly what makes you vulnerable to such concerns anyways, isn’t it!
      Many hugs back!
      xo

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