. . . and While I’m on the Subject . . .

Oh! I wasn’t? Well, maybe I wasn’t talking about it, but I was thinking about it, and in my household, that constitutes a continuing conversation rather than a festival of non-sequiturs. That’s the way we operate. First, someone says something that appears to be completely out of the ether, Left Field, or a secret portion of the anatomy generally best left out of conversation. The ensuing stretch of interminable seconds is usually occupied with the second person working out madly in his or her head what the remark meant, how on earth it had any relevance, if it is possible to decipher, and–oh! There it is! Suddenly, the very long and convoluted train of thought that led from a comment or conversation long since ended (or so one thought) reappears, not having stopped at the station or even derailed but instead having wound through uncharted territory and visited innumerable exotic towns along the way before returning to view.

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Sometimes it's as though I'd taken some sort of strange potion and time shifted . . .

As my spouse and I have just returned from a theatre viewed the Metropolitan Opera‘s live-transmission broadcast of Giuseppe Verdi‘s ‘Ernani‘, I can say that we two are evidently not alone in this discombobulating sense of the very tenuous connectivity of perceived reality. I was quite delighted with seeing the broadcast, our whole reason for attending in the first place being the Met live-broadcast debut of the exquisite-voiced Angela Meade, who ‘graduated’ university with my husband in a sense, being a senior student and outstanding soprano soloist in the choir he conducted and took on his farewell Scandinavian tour as he left the university where he’d been teaching for 18 years. Besides her very lovely persona, we knew and admired the beauty of her voice then and she proved again today that it has only further ripened into full bloom. Frankly, she could open the poorly translated operating manual for a lawn mower and sing from it and it would be musically and artistically fulfilling and entirely worth the hearing.

While I’m being frank, I’d have to say in addition that I think the libretto of ‘Ernani’ could be surpassed in literary merit, coherence and comprehensibility by the aforementioned lawn mower manual. Opera is, admittedly, rarely sought out for its exemplary logic and natural progression or, probably, for much resemblance to the real world and its history and human actions therein. That’s not why we go to the opera. But among operas I’ve seen and heard, ‘Ernani’ is mighty high (and I use the word advisedly) on the short list of the most wildly improbable, disjointed and just plain wacky so-called plots. That train not only left the rails right out of the station, it went straight off a cliff.

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Let Elvira sing Hey, nonny nonny, Ernani, you ninny!

Meanwhile, back in his studio, young Signore Verdi was either smitten enough with the romance of a love quadrangle to ignore the outrageously outlandish pastiche on a plot-line, or perhaps had merely imbibed an entire Jeroboam of Barolo by himself, because he took that absurd libretto and proceeded to set the whole thing to equally incongruous music. Three hours of it. Thankfully, whether the Barolo had any chance to or not, Verdi eventually matured into writing stuff that had some relationship to the text, however ludicrous the latter happened to be.

Opera is at least so honest as to call itself ‘work’, it’s just not entirely up-front about the post-compositional work remaining to be done by audience members who might find it quite the laborious process to decipher what’s going on, with whom, and how. Never mind when, where and why. But I mustn’t pick at nits too freely; after all, our nice little cozy home conversations might just as well constitute the storyline of some incipient opera themselves. I have no musical compositional skills, so I couldn’t compete with Verdi even at his most immature, but maybe if I gloss over my melodic shortcomings with a few additional high Cs and a royal assassination or two thrown in no one will even notice that I’ve wandered far and constantly from my original subject. I may have mentioned that I tend to do that. I forget. Oh, well. It happens. And while I’m on the subject . . .

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Ooh! Pretty flower! Now, where was I?

2011 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2011 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 6,300 times in 2011. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 5 trips to carry that many people.

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Foodie Tuesday: A Mystery Wrapped in an Enigma Wrapped in a Crispy Golden Tempura Batter

photoWhy do I like to eat what I like to eat? It’s a puzzle, of course. Some of it must naturally arise from the peculiarities of my specific papillary configuration. (Hey, get your mind back up here! I’m talking tastebuds.) Some preferences were undoubtedly trained into me by the provender present in the happiest associations of my infancy and childhood. A few favorites have sprung from serendipitous tastings introduced by environment, friends, or random grocery store discoveries.

And there is that wide swath of my preferences defined by three simple characteristics: sweetness, fat and umami. An unbiased observer might perceive this as a recipe for dietary disaster, especially regarding the potential for shrinkage in the vascular regions and expansion in the pants-ular regions. I will not deny that age and indiscretion have been taking me at speed down the well-buttered slopes of gravity toward ever more elastic-oriented departments at the clothiers’. I am cursed, however, with sound dentition, few allergies, unusually slick arteries, and an exceedingly forgiving self-image, and therefore delude myself consistently into flagrant indulgence. Fie upon my natural good health! It makes me  ever the more porcine in my eating habits no matter how I flatter myself I’m too wise to fall so far.

Even the recommended remedy for stopping zombies would likely fail here, if you subscribe to the old school of filling their mouths with salt and sewing their lips shut, because of course salt enhances the umami perception and you’d just end up recharging my gastronomic ghastliness. Not, I would think, your aimed-for outcome of saving me from my food-stalking madness.

Then what shall I do? Mangia, mangia! What, did you really think there was any other solution? I crave delicious things. I would no more survive a deprivation diet than I would invite a known sadist over to give me a mani-pedi. If you happen to be looking for me, then, look no farther than the nearest grocery aisle, the kitchen with the loaded larder. I will be the one moving like a monstrous threshing machine through the comestibles, making Yummy Sounds with wild abandon.

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Maybe I’ll throw together a little parcel of pork chops–they go down nicely with, say, a ragout of green beans and cremini mushrooms, some buttery, fat avocado, and a crisp sweet pear . . .

Lest you think I’m utterly indiscriminate and have landed in the only possible location where one of my ilk could survive–Texas being known for both its Everything-Oversized approach to life and ‘it tastes better when it’s deep fried’ attitude toward all things edible–there are some few things I won’t eat in any quantity. I’m only mostly indiscriminate.

Especially if there are foods handy that have any combination of the previously named temptations. Sweetness plus fat? Oh, yeah. Fat plus umami? Soitanly. Sweetness plus fat plus umami? Get thee out of my way, for I must needs attack these victuals instanter!

I will admit that spending long periods of time mulling over my food-lust is probably not precisely what one would term a cure or even a mitigation of the condition. After all of my worried ruminations on this topic, however, my friend Dennis Lange over at thebardonthehill assured me in haiku that:

Calories don’t count
On any Foodie Tuesday –
It’s only blogging.

I couldn’t’ve said it better myself. After all, my mouth is so full.

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Fresh labne with olive oil, za’atar and lime juice on warm flatbread . . .

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. . . a savory treat that goes down especially well with, say, some fresh squeezed blood orange juice . . .


Brightening Our Days with Scary Stories

The news and indeed sometimes our own everyday lives provide plenty of stories of sorrow and horror and True Crime, which is–oddly enough–precisely why I like a good fictional tale of dread, doom and destruction. It’s such a relief to remember how to detach from dark and grotesque and terrifying things and even to laugh at them. But I’m mighty squeamish, when it comes to the real thing or even a too-good simulation of it, so slasher movies just don’t do the trick for me. I do need the remove and control that reading or visibly stylized and artificial images provide.

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Something is amiss in the conservatory . . .

It’s why when it does come to film I love the Alfred Hitchcock classics of suspense, or the genteel Gothicism of movies like Bunny Lake is Missing, Hush, Hush, Sweet Charlotte, and Gaslight. I avidly read the yarns of Roald Dahl and Edgar Allan Poe and Saki and their ilk, and bask in a good Henry James or Robertson Davies ghost story. I thrive on the dark-tinged fantasy of Edmund Dulac and the witty weirdness of Edward-too-good-to-be-true-named-Gorey.

Oh, yes, I’ll happily digest the terrors of a good contemporary thriller novel or the occasional modern fright-night movie, but I’m a sucker for old-school drama, it seems. Even in music, I can find lots of vicarious thrills and scare tactics in a great modern film or TV score and there are some current composers that excel in this (Danny Elfman, are your ears burning?), but my heart never ceases to lean back toward the bejeweled darkness of Mussorgsky’s Night on Bald Mountain and Saint-Saëns’ Danse Macabre and, if I’m in the mood for cinematic music, perhaps one of Miklós Rózsa‘s classic romantic scores.

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I am haunted enough by my own spooky imaginings . . .

It’s a fine thing to have the worlds of imagination in which to safely plumb and defeat all horrors and terrors. So I do like to indulge the urge myself with stories and poems and artworks of the brooding and twisted or the cheerily perverse and demented sort whenever I need reassurance–or just want to share the twinges a little.

  • photoWhat better way to find comfort on a drearily dark day than to curl up with a bit of artistic darkness?

Be Not Afraid of Me,

Unless You have a Good Reason

I buried the various body parts

in secret locations around the state,

reserving the heart of him I hate

to pin on the board for a game of darts,

and when it was thoroughly pierced and minced

I put on my favorite dress and heels

and danced a couple Virginia reels

before I washed up the room and rinsed,

then took the mincemeat left of the rat,

put it in the kiln for a nice hot burn,

where it made a fine glaze for a lovely urn,

and filled it with daisies, and that was that.

You might think I’m a teeny bit callous, cold,

rejoicing in vicious destructive acts,

but perhaps you’d relent if you knew the facts

and the rat’s true story at last were told–

but worry you needlessly? I? A shame,

when it’s highly unlikely by any stretch

of imagination you’d be a wretch

of such magnitude and incur the same . . .

now let us sit down for a cup of tea,

our own snug little tête-à-tête;

don’t worry about what you have just et,

unless you have reason to fear from me . . .

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So what's the score on horror? Do we close the book on beastliness? Oh, no, there's ALWAYS so much more . . .

Smile and be

What looks like a smile

From this distance might

Be the bared fangs

Of monstrous threat

Or then again might be

The hateful grin

Of rigid death

So much to read

Out of a single smile

But all I need to know

Is, do I keep on

Going toward it

Who Needs Persistence when You can have Lucky Breaks?

 

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Who persists, endures; who endures can astound . . .

Me, that’s who.

I have already admitted to having had more than my fair share of lucky breaks in my lifetime. And I have no intention of turning in my life-lottery tickets, either; I’ll gladly keep collecting such loot any and every time it’s tossed my way.

But it’s random. It’s unreliable. And if I’ve used up my fun-karma and crazy mountains of bliss already, I’d like to think that my skill and hard work and cleverness and dedication will fill in any resulting gaps. (Well okay, would that my good luck would grant me a quick smack on the pate first with that glittery wand imparting the necessary will and skill to make this possible.)

Lacking any guarantees of some handy grant-wishing genie, indefatigability fairy or goodness-gnome just flitting into my neighborhood on a whim, what I get to thinking is that there are all kinds of motivation and inspiration out there if I just get my own effort the slightest bit underway. When I think of family and friends, and certainly of some of the great famous icons of fortitude and endurance, those who have risen above the general tide of humanity through sheer force of personality, the strength of their own determination, their patience in times of trial and intense belief in something special well worth their doing. To be unwavering in the pursuit of what is important takes passion and faith.

I’ll have to work on that still. I’m pretty sure it’ll only happen in very little increments and at a glacial pace. That’s how it works, I guess.

So here I am, starting a blog and plodding on, day by day, trying to keep my mind hopping just enough to move forward, ever forward . . . dainty little molecule by molecule. Here I go, planning the next minor move toward putting my more of my artwork out there in the world. Here it comes, the next foray into a new phase of constant art-making practice, stumbling along and hoping that my totems and talismans of dedication and determination will push me yet further toward–what? Being a better artist, that would be terrific. Being a better person, that would be outstanding. Being committed enough to work toward getting there any way I can: that’s the real goal, and I hope with all my heart I find the fortitude to go that route.

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Teach me how to do this, my friends . . .

. . . and . . .

. . . in case anyone wondered . . .

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How I blue all my worries away

When Wonderfulness Jumps Up and Bites You

. . . you can’t be ready for a surprise, beyond living as close to ‘expect-the-unexpected’ as you can manage at all times. But it pays to give attention when the serendipitous does happen. In a magical used-book store, I was enjoying as much as all of the great tomes and illustrated wonders and history-breathing music scores the antics of the shop cat, a rambunctious adolescent intent on caroming like a pinball off of every available surface of the building and its contents. His determined hyperkinetics and failed stealth resulted in more pratfalls than the king of the jungle magnificence through whose lens I suspect he saw himself: it was hard not to anthropomorphize and laugh. I may have irritated him a little with my own self-important patronizing–whatever the inspiration, when I leaned near him as I was headed for the counter, he jumped up blithely and bit me on the eyebrow.

Not that I’ve learned my lesson in any way, but that little moment of being put in my place by an upstart juvenile feline reminded me that despite being myself a creature of a parallel universe in some ways, I operate within the confines of the real one on a quotidian basis and so I constantly carom off of it (and its varied denizens) in unexpected ways too. At the least, I should be happy to find wisdom and inspiration in the results.

One such collision-of-worlds that frequently cheers my existence is the translation of text from foreign languages to English, or often, of bad English into worse English, that occurs in commercial and public applications. So I made a digital collage as homage to that gift.

digital collage of happily mis-translated malaprops

Good cheer comes in imported packages