Lesser Lights

digital illustration

The major stars are always more visible than those around them. It’s demonstrably true not only in the galaxies but in the more modest constellations of humanity. Our attentions are naturally drawn toward those who shine most impressively and dramatically—for good or ill; those more modestly gifted or less showy mostly find their own lights muddled or even eclipsed by the intensity nearby, and as a result we seldom spot and take note of them.

Even those of us who are not only accustomed to, but also aware of, being humbled and diminished by comparison to others’ flashier character can easily forget how this applies to others. Just because I might feel neglected doesn’t necessarily mean I notice others being equally shortchanged; indeed, it’s more likely that if I’m feeling under-appreciated I get too preoccupied with my longing to be Special and resentful navel-gazing to think that I’m probably in the majority rather than otherwise.

Still, there’s hope. Just as a supernova will someday burn to nothingness, human stars tend mostly to flash into the general notice, burn however brightly for however long, and be dimmed by eventual inattention or death. They, too, will eventually be outshone and/or replaced by other stars whose time has come.

And if I, or any other, should in the meantime feel unreasonably hidden from sight, we are still free to seek our own bit of gleam. For some folk, that seeking comes in ambitions for accomplishment and fame. For the rest of us, the surest way to kindle the blazing fire that gives off sufficient heat and light to be noted by anyone else is to turn our focus outward. Devoting energy, attention and love to causes and works outside of our petty selves, and especially to other persons, is the spark that, when kindled in their spirits, creates the steadiest, most lasting kind of light. Even the smallest and weakest among us shines brightly in this tiny act of selfless will.digital illustration

That which is Seen

graphite drawingThat which is seen by the untrained eye of the casual observer is an older man, an elderly man, perhaps a shell of his former self. Not someone with a lot of use and life adventure left in him. Handsome, perhaps, in his latter years, with this silver hair and these pale clear eyes, with his faintly stooping posture before a window where no single thing that’s new is seen; elegant in his quiet way, and maybe wise. But not more.

What cannot be seen is the forty-two years he spent working for the postal service, learning the business from the bottom up and eventually teaching not just the next generation that would follow him but the next after that as well. There is no way to know at merely a glance that he tended a beautiful garden on Sunday afternoons where he grew too many vegetables for his own table so he shared the rest around the neighborhood. Invisible, too, is the love he keeps alive for his long-dead wife of thirty years, except for the small bouquet of flowers he picks from that garden of his and gives to their son and his wife every Monday because they were her favorite blooms. Yes, the flowers and the kids.

In the plain little vase where those flowers live for the week, there is room for all that can’t be seen in one quick look at the profile of a man who sits and meditates beside a window. Only by taking the time to appreciate the fulness of that humble bunch of flowers and all that they have to tell can anyone really know what to see when looking toward that window’s light. It takes a certain clarity to see what’s right in front of you.graphite drawing

Who Needs Persistence when You can have Lucky Breaks?

 

Eleanor Roosevelt portrait

Who persists, endures; who endures can astound . . .

Me, that’s who.

I have already admitted to having had more than my fair share of lucky breaks in my lifetime. And I have no intention of turning in my life-lottery tickets, either; I’ll gladly keep collecting such loot any and every time it’s tossed my way.

But it’s random. It’s unreliable. And if I’ve used up my fun-karma and crazy mountains of bliss already, I’d like to think that my skill and hard work and cleverness and dedication will fill in any resulting gaps. (Well okay, would that my good luck would grant me a quick smack on the pate first with that glittery wand imparting the necessary will and skill to make this possible.)

Lacking any guarantees of some handy grant-wishing genie, indefatigability fairy or goodness-gnome just flitting into my neighborhood on a whim, what I get to thinking is that there are all kinds of motivation and inspiration out there if I just get my own effort the slightest bit underway. When I think of family and friends, and certainly of some of the great famous icons of fortitude and endurance, those who have risen above the general tide of humanity through sheer force of personality, the strength of their own determination, their patience in times of trial and intense belief in something special well worth their doing. To be unwavering in the pursuit of what is important takes passion and faith.

I’ll have to work on that still. I’m pretty sure it’ll only happen in very little increments and at a glacial pace. That’s how it works, I guess.

So here I am, starting a blog and plodding on, day by day, trying to keep my mind hopping just enough to move forward, ever forward . . . dainty little molecule by molecule. Here I go, planning the next minor move toward putting my more of my artwork out there in the world. Here it comes, the next foray into a new phase of constant art-making practice, stumbling along and hoping that my totems and talismans of dedication and determination will push me yet further toward–what? Being a better artist, that would be terrific. Being a better person, that would be outstanding. Being committed enough to work toward getting there any way I can: that’s the real goal, and I hope with all my heart I find the fortitude to go that route.

Jackie Robinson portrait

Teach me how to do this, my friends . . .